HAPPY BDAY TO ME ..
HAPPY BDAY TO ME ..
HAPPY BDAY TO GRACEEEEEE ..
HAPPY BDAY TO ME ..
aww, thank you thank you.

But im still not happy cus someone commented that my hair looks like a pineapple. He said bad things about my hair. & i dont like anyone commenting my hair bad or ugly or whatever the stupid crap. i just hate people commenting it super bad. I meant like, just keep bad comments to themselves right. Anyways, the starting of my week went quite alright but sometimes bad. Well, i can say that Hakim & the rest are getting sooo action. & bad news, someone in my class like me. GOSH! but didn't accept cus my friends dont let me (x
& THANKS FOR THE BDAY WISHES! I LOVEEEEEE YOOUUUUUU.
Loads of sabotaging from shiykin, sue, samuel, han hui, aqilah, hidayah & nabilah.
VERU PAINFULL.
& not forgetting from kerina also. hahahahha. Anyways, TRAINEE PREFECTS ARE DOING DUTY WITH US ALD! YAYAYAYAYYAYAYAY :DD im so happy cann.
& last but not least, happy bday to me!! :D
IM BORED!

byebye :D

You mean alot to me.

♥
im bored.

Im super bored D:
YAY, school is back next monday! But i dont feel any excited-ness or whatever. It just seems like an ordinary day for me unlike back when i was in primary school. hahaha. Anyways, school is on monday & i havent bought a bag. shitty .. i wanna buy a bag from Rip curl this weekend, if possible. & then, rebond my hair! whheeee~ Currently, chatting with Jian Liang. okay la, its very nice talking to him. We're super open with each other. I can remember during International Friendship Day. Mr Siva forced me to wear the costume. Damn luh, irritating. i didn't really want to wear it & yet he still can forced me. okay, i admit, it was super embarrassing. I went in to the library cus i just wanna be alone for some time. Hong Da & Jian Liang went inside & comforted me. That was the first time seeing them so nice to me. I couldn't stop crying, & they did everything best to make me happy. Jian Liang, thanks for everything :DD & i hope you'll get her soon, yea! You're a very nice guy.
Enough of the whole flashback thingy .. my com is lagging like hell! and i hate it. anyways, im looking forward to rebonding my hair this weekend :D and of course my bday! wooohoo! sometimes, i wish i could stop missing him for once. But i cant D:
Am i sometimes too dramatic about stuffs ? maybe, uhs ? LOL. I am! (x
Anyways, i've got no mood to blog today, just tooooooo bored. Cant wait to see my friends again when school reopen on moday! :D
Miss them loads!

You mean alot to me.




You mean alot to me.

♥
im super bored.

Chatted with some friends & I dont know why i still cry for a pathetic guy D: anyways, did blogging and of course friendster -ing, as usual. But not forgetting that today is Nadyra's bday.

HAPPY BDAY NADYRA! (:

Make the sign super large so that she can see clearly. HAHAHA. crap .. Nadyra, happy 14th bday. Make a wish ******* .... yesyes. But she's probably having her dance practice right now. and in 6 more days, its gonna be my bday soon. please, no sabotaging. LOL. Darn, why must my bday falls 3 days after school reopen ? :/ Hate being sabotaged by friends (x true .. If i were to make a wish right now, it will be :

I wish to turn back time so that i can be with him again.

heard that before ? yes, you do. I meant for some people. Then chatted with Khairul [ 3e2 ] to update him that he broke up with me. okay .. he was like .. OMG! I can say he was shocked by what I said. So i told him that he was stressed about his studies that he have to stop our relationship. Khairul, you are such you really good guy. you're the only guy that understands how i feel after going through your break up with Atifah last time. But too bad we're only able to chat for a few min D: Few min after he went offline, i went to check my Msn msger if anyone has just online. Then, skimming through all of my friends emails, i saw this phrase :
When you love someone, & they break you heart .. Don't give up on love, have faith. Restart & just hold on. Seeing this phrase and trying to picture what exactly it means makes me sooo relax. It just cools my feelings down. Trying to imagine a person singing that phrase over and over again in a soft, gentle & sweet voice, running pass your ears just makes me go .. oooh oooh oooh. hahaha. Sounds funny but not actually (x
& i really have to thanks Khairul for understanding me. You're always a good guy :D
Well, i guess i have to talk to Rully tmr for the Prefects' rehearsals again, uhs. Just hoping that we'll put in alot more effort & seriousness into it than the previous rehearsals we had.

* Rehearsals starts at 9 am - 12 noon :D

Good Day!

You mean alot to me.

you hurt me

Today is themost boring day ever! Im hating holidays more & more! Cus' it sucks la. hahaha. Does anyone cares about me ? I know my friends do & my family. I mean, all i want from HIM is just a advance bday wish & yet he cant do that. Are friends supposed to be so self-centered ? I guess not. You know he's getting more & more worried about his studies. I meant like he's getting soo "O.A" [ OverreActing ]
I think i shouldn't be too O.A about it either. It has already past.
All i wanna do now is to .. CAMWHORE with my ex-friends. Missing them badly.
I miss Amirah ..
I miss Ika ..
I miss Hariza
I miss Fatin
I miss Atiqah
I miss Siti Atiqah
I miss Fahimah
I miss EVERYONE SINGLE ONE OF THEM D:
Alyssa girlfriend of Kerina, thanks again for the skins ya! haha. See am i soo nice to resize both of your names to large ? hahaha. Btw, for the prefects' thingy, we havent make the Invitation cards plus the souvenier [ i dont know how to spell ].

*Prefects, the next rehearsal will be this Friday at 9 am. Be in your Prefects' tee :D

A short gentle reminder. LOL. Wheee~ school is reopening soon next monday! 3 days before my bday. woohooo. im fourteen(:
Ain't a lil girl, anymore. Im in-the-proccess-of-growing-up-to-be a young lady.
* In need of Testimonials!
Anyways, continueing to what I've said earlier about HIM. I asked Sue to help me chat with him to see if he still remembers my bday.

Sue: Do you rmb when is Grace's bday or not ?
Hakim: ME & HER ARE NTG!
Sue: I know la idiot. [ Good one SUE! ]
Sue : Just asking if you know right.
Hakim: So ..

I was like .. wtf wrong with this guy. Suddenly dont care about people. He's like sooo heartless towards me already ever since the break-up -.- Sucky .. yesyes, & then he went offline. I guess he's angry already. hahaha. Easily to get hot tempered about a small issue. Then .. AISY WAS ONLINE! Aisy [ 1a1 last year, transfered @ Bishan park sec ], woohooo! Finally get to chat with him. Its been a long time, yea. * LOVE like DRUG is Aisy, for your info.

LOVE like DRUG:
hey!
Me:
hey.
LOVE like DRUG:
ermmmm...
LOVE like DRUG:
may i knw hu u r???
LOVE like DRUG:
; )
Me:
grace(:

LOVE like DRUG:
grace...
LOVE like DRUG:
GRACE!!!
Me:
from juying sec.
Me:
YAYAYAY!
LOVE like DRUG:
haha!!!
Me:
THE ONE YOU ALWAYS INSULT IN SCHOOL.
Me:
during mt lessons.
Me:
-.-
LOVE like DRUG:
issit realli u???
Me:
yesyes.
Me:
(:
Me:
hahahaha!
LOVE like DRUG:
yayness!
Me:
funny orh!
Me:
LOLNESS!
LOVE like DRUG:
so...
LOVE like DRUG:
how r u n hakim???
Me:
ooh, break already.
Me:
D:
Me:
LOL.
LOVE like DRUG:
ouhh...
Me:
only lasted about 1 year & 2 months plus.
LOVE like DRUG:
sorie to hear...
Me:
but less than 3 months.
Me:
yea, i know.
Me:
LOL.
LOVE like DRUG:
ouhh...
LOVE like DRUG:
ouhhk...
LOVE like DRUG:
so hu u with now???
Me:
im single.
Me:
hahaha.
LOVE like DRUG:
yay!
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
Me:
LOL!
Me:
why yay ?
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
LOVE like DRUG:
this is like the first time hearing u being single...
Me:
LOL.
Me:
yea, last year i was like most of the time attacthed.
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
LOVE like DRUG:
then nvr accept huzaiyed???
Me:
NO WAY!
Me:
wa lao.
Me:
yuck.
Me:
-.-
LOVE like DRUG:
haha!!!
Me:
i rmb last year valentines day.
Me:
he gave this earing.
LOVE like DRUG:
haha!
Me:
only one. the other pair dont have.
Me:
sickening luh.
LOVE like DRUG:
hehe...
LOVE like DRUG:
and what did u do with it???
Me:
ooh, i didnt take it.
Me:
hahaha.
LOVE like DRUG:
hehe...
LOVE like DRUG:
u broke his heart...
LOVE like DRUG:
more than twice...
Me:
LOL!
Me:
so hows your school there ?
LOVE like DRUG:
ouhhk la...
LOVE like DRUG:
abit boring...
Me:
i know, much more better than juying right.
LOVE like DRUG:
but cn tuck out shirt!
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
LOVE like DRUG:
boring la...
Me:
at least okay luh.
Me:
juying now getting more & more strict la.
Me:
soo, got girlfriend right ?
LOVE like DRUG:
>>> [show the display pic]
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
LOVE like DRUG:
yeah!
Me:
haha.
Me:
how long ?
Me:
whats her name ?
LOVE like DRUG:
3 months...
Me:
ooh.
LOVE like DRUG:
her name...
LOVE like DRUG:
siti...
Me:
ooh.
Me:
haha.
Me:
i still can rmb you stead with nabilah.
Me:
LOL!
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
Me:
who is she with now???
Me:
i dont know.
Me:
she rebond hair already you know.
LOVE like DRUG:
i know from last year la...
LOVE like DRUG:
haha!
Me:
ya, now curling up already.
Me:
she say she wanna perm.
LOVE like DRUG:
haha...
Me:
got friendster ?
Me:
or blog ?
LOVE like DRUG:
nope...
Me:
why dont want to make ?
Me:
btw, you're still in NA right ?
LOVE like DRUG:
technical...
LOVE like DRUG:
lazy...
Me:
lol/.
Me:
so your mid year pass ?\
Me:
how was your malay.
Me:
?*
LOVE like DRUG:
LOVE like DRUG:
pas...
Me:
-.-
Me:
your malay pass ?
Me:
good luh.
Me:
i fail.
Me:
hahahah/
LOVE like DRUG:
no...
LOVE like DRUG:
i almost fail...
Me:
lol.
Me:
i got f9.
Me:
geog & history c6.
Me:
ouhh...
Me:
hahahaha.
Me:
jyian night this year gonna be boring leh.
LOVE like DRUG:
y???
Me:
mr harris say only the top 10 students get to go.
Me:
cus last year people smoking at the back of the hall.
Me:
then speech day gonna be on the same day as jyian night.
Me:
speech day starts at 3 - 5 pm.
Me:
jyian night starts at 6 - 8/9 pm.
Me:
only 1 HOUR TO CHANGE LEH.
Me:
i cant go back home.
LOVE like DRUG:
haha!!!
Me:
cus it takes 45 mins to reach home.
Me:
like sooo .. yuck.
Me:
then only 4 performances.
LOVE like DRUG:
hehe...
LOVE like DRUG:
gd luck yeah...
Me:
your school got this "be yourself" day ?
Me:
where can wear anything to school ?
LOVE like DRUG:
nope...
LOVE like DRUG:
; (
Me:
aww.
Me:
i thought have.,
Me:
like that then fun.
LOVE like DRUG:
hehe...
LOVE like DRUG:
brb yeah...
Me:
okay.

Fun luh, chatting with him. He never insult me like last year anymore. Can say he's much more nicer now. Wow, he's maturing .. (x I mean, its true. hahaha. woohoo! tomorrow is Nadyra's bday! happy bday NADYRA. too bad, she got dance practice tmr.

You mean alot to me.

♥

whee~ BLOGGY UPDATED!
thanks alyssa for doing my blog. I can say i LOVE the skin, man! Lol. I dont know how many times i've mentioned you name in my blog. Billion of times, baby! haha. Yay! Gonna camwhore again with my besties this friday. Because of this Prefects' investiture rehearsals luh. Walked in, walked out. okay, my background music is avril lavgine - when you're gone. very nice & very touching song.




You mean alot to me.

♥ I will be, all that you want & get myself together.

obviously, that sentence was taken from avril lavigne - I will be song. yesyes, its nice to listen to. anyways, yesterday was my so-called worst day. I ran away from home! yesyes, this is serious, people. im not joking alright. Do you get irritated whenever people forced you to do somethings but you dont want to ? A possible yes. haha! sorry, i get irritated easily whenever my brother forced me to do things for him. sickening luh. the story goes like this :
yesterday he went for a haircut then he bought this wella straightener for his damn short hair. it was around 8 plus in the night. Gosh! He forced me to straighten his hair but i dont want to cus i was watching TV then he kept bugging me till 10.15 pm. haha, im a brat. yea, i know that (x no but if you think of it, he forced you to do it for him but he'll never helped you back. Isn't sooooo unfair ? He try to make reasons such as, my hair is tooo long. Damn you! I couldn't take it anymore then i just ran away at 10.30 pm. its like whenever he asks from me i must follow ? okay, he kept on taking my money whenever he needs to go out play basketball with his friends. like hello ?! i need that money for some reasons! you're not the only one who need it so badly. then he says he'll pay me back once after he finished his basketball. but sadly, he didn't return anything. So what if he's the oldest. doesn't mean his the king or something which i must follow everything he asks me to do.
okay, then when i ran away, i went up to 6th floor. haha! i dont dare go out anywhere xP yes, i hide at 6th floor. lame right ? haha! then i waited if anyonre cares to look for me. wa lao they didn't bother to come & search for me for that 30 mins. Guess they dont care about the youngest in the family. Cus they were tooo busy focusing on my brother, WHO IS THE OLDEST, ever since he got this new job thingy. everyone except my mum, went to look for me. my brother saw me then they're like asking me to go back home. HELL NO! C'mon, im turning 14 can. Dont treat me like your new born baby. im sick of it okay.
then in the end, i went back home at 11.25 pm. wtf! i was crying like hell in my bedroom. my mum talked to me. LIKE HELLO?! she dont understand what im going through. She thinks its always easy passing examinations. yea right, as if. It's already difficult for me to pass geography & history. I've been like studying like hell for history and geography okay. & I cant even understand what the hell my geography teacher is teaching. & also, its not easy getting into the "click" in a secondary school life. too much complication. Friends backstabbing, people searching for fight in school. WTF! Anyways, she never been in my shoes before, of course how could she even understand.
I'm tired of blabbing. lOl
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You mean alot to me.

oh! another boring day. i can say im everyday alone at home from morning til night. im so lonely. yea, kinda sian -.-
anyways, i cant describe what im feeling right now. it like im missing someone terrible. i dont know why i still have feelings for him. but surely by now, he wont like anymore. i guess this feeling just dont want to go away. but the more i kept thinking of it makes me more sad. i also dont know why hidayah feel pity for me. c'mon isn't it just a break up ? & we're still so young & immature to even take on a relationship. alot of things has change for me. Living every single day all by myself. & of course going back to school for prefect's investiture rehearsal. hope to take more pics. LOL. gonna bring my camera! i woke up early just now at 10.52 am, feeling so empty inside. well, not most of relationship end up with a happy ending right ? there must be some conflict going on in between. but both of us never had arguments, we never fight about something. we didn't even shout or scream at each other. its like the days feel like years whenever im alone.
is he really very irreplaceable to me ? wtf! i dont know. almost everything i do, it always reminds me of him. i just dont know why. but i also know he dont care about me now. guys will be guys, right ? Does good guys always finish last ? Does good guys always good in a relationship ? or are they just like any other guy ?
cut the questions. I've learnt how to move on. the past has alreasy past so stop thinking about it.
cus we only live life once.

Sorry, too dramatic (x

You mean alot to me.

heyhey youyou! :D

anyways, chatting with Gino at the same time. WOOHOO! hahah. didn't know that he knows my brother, aaron, the "scape dude". hahah. YES! can online almost everyday. my brother is working at Lacoste. i know the shop quite lame la.
okay stop the whole drama thingy. so sian luh. i've been a couch potato since yesterday .. watch tv shows all day longggggggggggggggggggggggg. I WANNA GO OUT! but im lazy (x

Because ..
when the sun shines we'll shines together ..
told you i'll be here forever
said i'll always be a friend
took an oath imma sticking out til the end ....
bla bla ..

IM SO BORED. cut the crappings! phew, i can say im moving on happily without him :D no more tears! no more sadness! no more bullshit! (: lovee taking pics with my darlings <33 ( that's a fact ) for your info, im not showing a fake smile everyday. im becoming more crazier, more crappy, more hyper active! (: okay la maybe not so, but who cares. well, guess there's nothing much to write, uhs ? nothing much happening in my life either. really sian ..

i wanna work (:

You mean alot to me.

these are some of the photos we took. actually there's more. but still in the process of sending. yups, took pics with khairul, too. haha.

more pics @ www.friendster.com/chocolatekisses :D

TUESDAY

okay, woke up at 6.00 am, quickly ironed my prefect's tee & school skirt. and of course, bathed la. then after dressing up, took 99 bus at 8.00 am. WOOHOO! reached school and saw sue, suriya, anderson & hasif 2a3. yup, while waiting i went hungry. so i went out to buy some food with sue. yummy! :D then gathered at the hall. sin jin & sandy took charge of the whole thingy. SANDY, can you make up your mind ? she was like ... " sec twos, sit according to your classes & your reg number." So we followed everything she said. " okay, 2a1 sit behind 2a3, 2a2 sit behind 2e1, 2t1 sit behind 2t1." All of us moved accordingly to what she said. then sandy was like " eh, 2a2 sit infront of 2a3, 2t1 sit behind 2e1. " then we moved again. wa lao, she like cant make up her mind la. then we were given 15 min break. borrowed nazrul's handphone and took loads of pics with sue & nadyra. after the "thingy", its time for the rehearsals! damn tiring. All of us went behind the hall. waited for the instructions. then the song started. the sec twos went out first followed by sec threes and the exco. then went up the stage and then wait for everyone to come. yes, by the time everyone is already in their positions, i have to say 1,2,3 cus i was sitting in the 3rd row, middle. we rehearsed the whole walked in thingy for about 3 to 4 times. next it was the rehearsals thats gonna take place in the stage itself. this time, with the candles & the certificate. quite complicated at first but went quite alright. Finally we went through it one last time. WOOHOO! it was much better. it was almost the end of the rehearsal, a short announcement made by sin jin. OMG! another rehearsal on 22 june, friday, 9 am to 12 noon. and another full-dress rehearsal when school reopen. and also gonna be a busy term for me too. I HAVE TO GO TO FUHUA SECONDARY FOR THEIR PREFECT'S INVESTITURE WITH ANDERSON. so boring luh. haha. kerina you so bad, you said that their invitation card so ugly. hey, they made an effort doing that okay. but have to admit, its really ugly.

after the dismissal, we went to KFC to eat. gosh, i was really starving la. then took pics with nadyra again. nadyra asked me, " eh grace, how come you suddenly become so photogenic ? " actually i also dont know. Felt really tired so i went back home. aww, have to take 99 alone. haha. glad im used to it. while rotting inside the bus, I SAW HIM PLAYING SOCCER WITH HIS SIBLINGS. omg! go & die la. jking! xD i looked at him, he also saw me. :P please la, this kind of guys shouldnt deserve anything from a good girl :D

okay luh. my friends still sending me the pics. gotta blog next time. byebye!

You mean alot to me.

SATURDAY
HELLOE!

had a good weekend. not so bad. but i still suffer from boredom at home. anyways, i went to Nanyang CC for MONOPOLYouth Challenge. okay, firstly, i went to JP alone, as usual. bought yummy cookies. then i took the bus 242 to Nanyang CC for the briefing. at first, i was alone so i just roamed around the area. then i was getting bored so i just sat down at one of the benches.
okay la, see how boring i can get ? hell yea! so while rotting there, Evangeline finally came! hah! but didn't talk to her, cus i dont know her quite well. i meant we're not yet friends la xD
then waited again for 10 to 15 min, & YES, su myat, florence & jia ying came. wooohooo. boredom = bye! :D & yes, 1 min later, sue & amirul arrived. like shit luh, kept calling her house then no one pick up. thought of asking her out first before going to the NYCC meeting. but i got fed up. then Wee Keong (the person in charge) asked us to go up to the meeting room. DAMN!
the table are like super long. it's almost like sooo grand la. it started at 7.45 pm, ended exactly 9 pm. Good luh. Han Hui (the speaker for the day) briefed us about the event happening tomorrow. WOW! we're like the BANKER of the game. but its damn complicating. really, not jking. me & sue was like .. wtf they're talking about ? yea yea, blab blab blab. Gosh! there's this old guy, in fact, he's "botak" la. wa lao, he's not even the speaker & he soooooo kepo luh. its like he's talking then he ask so many qns, after asking the qns, he started making jokes. WTH, han hui is not even finish blabbering alright.
then the clock stikes 9 pm.
WE ARE DISMISSED!
Sue & I proceed to KFC to have some snacks, so we ordered Cheese Fries. yups, amirul also came & joined us. then after eating, i borrowed amirul's hangphone to take photos again. Took alot with sue :D yes yes, amirul you have to send me the pics. I WANT THEM! all of us finish blabbering about stuffs, then it was time to go home. Waited for 99 bus to arrive, glad it was double decker. So i took the bus first, sue & amirul were left behind. Bus was also quite empty all the way to Parc Oasis. & finally reached home! so i watched TV for a lil bit, then my dad bought midnight snacks. ate until 12 am. took a quick shower, then went to bed. damn, i cant sleep. kept on tossing & turning. did that for almost 1h30min. so i was only able to sleep at 1.30 am. tmr have to wake up at 6.15 am. meeting the girls at 7.45 am at the jurong east mrt station.
The next day ...

sunday

i woke up at 6.15 am. didn't bother much of being late cus its really near my house. so took my own sweet time dressing up. left home at 0720 hr. reached the station at 0730 hr cus it was only a 8 to 10 min walk. waited for the girls to come, and i guess i was also the first person to reached there, too. okay, lets skip the whole waiting part. all the girls are finally with us! florence called Wee Keong cus he was still not there yet. He said that he was waiting for us at the back of the station. didn't know that. yes, he was wearing the event Tee-shirt. [ gonna post the image we took soon ] it looks soooo BRIGHT YELLOW! eeeew. anyways, gathered at the JTC summit. got bored so me, sue & jiliah sat down for a while at one corner. then it was time to collect our own event tee-shirt. shitty jiliah. i took size XS cus S was too big for me. but too bad, XS has run out of stock. so i have to exchange with jiliah. HAH! sue took size M xD then we procceed to the canteen for our breakfast. after that, went to the auditorium to seperate us to our groups. awww, felt sorry for Evangeline cus she's the only one got seperated. byebye!
anyways, while we girls was waiting for our names to be called out, me, sue & jiliah was totally laughing like hell. especially the people's name. see, we're bad girls la. this guy, his name was Abdul Anam [ i think ], so once we heard his name, ALL OF US BURST INTO LAUGHTER.
cant stop laughing. then finally Han hui finished announcing the names. all the JYS girls, only have to helped out with the COMCEN & the headquarters. woo, its a island wide walkiie talkiie. yea, he gave us few sheets of papers to list down what other teams had rent or bought during the monopoly. OMG! Khairul's { 3e1 } was there! so, helping out with the headquarters, we chatted & mostly took pics la. The pics are damn nice. good quality. waiting for florence to send me the pics. then ate some cakes. & yea! they gave us $5 each for free.
me, sue & jiliah took more & more pics till we got bored.
blah blah.
few hours rotting in the same area, sue & jiliah was playing a game. gosh, they cant seem to stop laughing. i dont see the point anyways. there's nothing funny about it actually. so i joined in " the fun ", also, i didn't know why i was laughing too. seeing them laugh just makes me wanna laugh with them too. even cried while laughing. florence group was behaving while our group was making alot of noise. Funny, mah.
blah blah.
it's 4.05 pm and the teams are rushing their way into the JTC summit. sorry, but our JYS team wasn't the first to arrive. then more & more teams were coming. then after 10 to 15 teams, our teams has finally arrived the summit. didn't know they were team 34. CONGRATS JYS!
i asked khairul this qns : " did you all get bankrupt ?"
He said : " no, but we can still take neoprint & eat at mcdonalds along the competition. "
but they bought Stamford road la. wa, they didn't take this seriously. ahhaha.
after the whole thingy, it was time for us to head back to the auditorium. everyone was freaking tired except us. waited to the guest of hounour to arrive. wtf, man! He took 15 mn to eached the auditorium. it was supposed to end at 5 pm but ended at 5.20 pm. aww, we didn't won that $1000 prize money ):
then accompanied sue to meet with amirul. me & jiliah went to bus stop first. then went back home safe & sound.

Quick ending, uhs ? sucky la. still feeling quite tired cus of too much laughter. Met some new friends, too. but they're also from jys, only that they're sec ones.

SHIT! My eyes are getting painful. guess have to end here.
byebye.

* 17 more days to my birthday :D

You mean alot to me.

i dont need a man. :P
that's right!

anyways, congrats to alyssa!(nah, your super big name) for being the head prefect 2007!
it goes like this :







You mean alot to me.

HELLOE!

woohooo! i can say im hyper active after reaching home, yesterday. although it was heart breaking la. but i dont give a damn, anymore. i can say he doesn't want to be friends with me la.
well, at least he gave me the oppurtunity to board the bus 99 first. HAH! The bus was pretty empty, then 3 bus stops later, hidayah have to go down already. awww, im all alone in the bus.
& yes, i still did cry inside the bus but hidayah asked me to relax. finally, she calmed me down.
hah, acftually i thought i wanna get some sun tanning. so i wore this Eprit tank top la. but in the end, it started to get cold & cloudy.
YAY! going to sentosa for a hols! get ready for another sun tanning. & also going to vivo again for shopping! wooooppppeee!
i've been sleeping at around 3 am for the past few days, OMG! im getting a huge eye bugs on my eye. eeeeeeeeewww! i think i should make a habit of sleeping before 12 am. YAY! 18 more days to my birthday!
happy advance birthday to me ..
happy advance birhtday to me ..
happy advance birthday to graceeee ...
happy advance birthday to me ... (:
im so impatient, man, turning 14 & gonna get a big, big, big & big sabotage laaaaaa.
i dont want flour on my hair! i dont want eggs on my shirts! i dont want anything! please!
ZAKI, im sure you're the master minds of all this things.
you're soooo not gonna get me. (: i hope ...

hais, today is another new day. WEEKENDS IS HERE! but im busy today & tmr.
needa go to nanyang CC for the monopoly youth, student officials meeting. like DAMN la, it starts at 7.30 pm to 9 pm. then for sunday i have to report at nanyang CC again by 8 am.
then go to jurong east, JTC summit for another briefing. then by 9 am, we are DISPERSED to our location. It will end around 4 pm la. & got 10 bucks salary. yea, i know it cheap. at least i got $$$.
gonna be a long weekend & also tiring. but i can earn lots of prefect's points & also for my CIP thingy :D
then get ready for another rehearsal on 12 june, 9 am, tuesday. GOSH! thank goodness its not on monday or wednesday. or else, he gotta treat me like he did to me yesterday.
honestly, the more i see him, makes me more hurt. very SICKKKKEEEENNNIIIIINNNNGGG la.
wooohooo! it's 1.23 am.
my previous record was at 3.15 am. make it to 3.30 am this time ?
NONONO! even big, big, big eye bugs! & cant believe i change my laughter. i cant really explain it here. sound more like a puppet laughing xD

lalalala~
i've got nothing to say, now. completely brainless right now.
mummy! wake up! make for me a hot milo, please.
hah. she's sleeping already la.

okay luh, dont want to spend my time rotting here.
byes! :D

You mean alot to me.



You mean alot to me.

okay, today was quite heartbreaking. i went to school to lend hidayah a sleeping bag. but didn't know that HE was having bball training.
HIDAYAH! I ASKED YOU TO COME AT 12.10 right, WHY DID YOU COME AT 12.25 ?
anyways, by the time hidayah came, his training was already over. so i was sitting down at the bench at the bus stop. ITS SUCCKKYY OKAAYY. He walked past me as if i wasn't even THERE ?! okay, that's gotta hurt a girl's feeling. & having stress about your studies, cmon hakim! THAT'S A STUPID REASON, okay.
& you know what, im not gonna let this break up thingy to take control of my life.
im gonna keep my head up high, & be proud of myself.

YOU SUCK, MAN! but seriously, i still never regretted being with you. & im not gonna take revenge on you.
i wont do anything. but i wanna see you suffer!
WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH.
im so mean. xD

but i love myself.
& no one can change that, only me :D

You mean alot to me.

WOOHHOOO! thanks to alyssa for sending me the pics during the prefects' investitture rehearsal. I LOOOOVVEEEEEEEEE ITTTTT.



You mean alot to me.

yea, thanks alyssa & the rest for the advice :D

you know, sometimes, i wouldnt want to trust guys anymore when they say " i love you forever" to me, forever means nothing. i thought that there's nothing can cheer me up. but actually, there is.
all thanks to Mr syed, hahs, he chatted with me at 1 am i think. you know, he's a funny guy but he's good at counselling me. though he insult me in school. HAHS. He's quite right, if you kept on thinking of unhappy thoughts, how can you be ever happy ? & also every person we meet in life, doesn't really meant for us. it was just made for us to make us a better person in life.
yea, i know breaking up is hard to do, but you also have to let it go right ? hahs, mr syed shared with me his relationship. both of them kept on breaking up with each other cus of problems, & they also kept on patching up. the girl sent him a letter, she wrote : " if we were meant to be together, we will .. " it's kinda awkward cus their relationship kept on breaking & lots of
patching. but they never lose hope. both of them didn't really thought that they'll end up with each other. it's because, they believed in it.
mr syed also thought that maybe god was playing tricks on them. so yea, their relationship was complicated. thought there was alot of problems, they are still together till now.

he said to me that, i have to let go about this breaking up thing. if he asked for break then let it be. cus everything for us was already planned. he also said that crying over it was stupid.
yea, he's right.

anyways, spent time chatting till now ( 2.10 am ), MR SYED ( your big big name ) im not a S.League fanatic. I know la, you wrote the report about Gombak vs korea la. i know got your super big name stated there. no need to show me, can.
& really, your pics in your msn display pic, are damn funny. hahs.
& also, thanks for cheering me up :D MR SYED! you're the best la. hahs.
also, im not kuku okay.

okay la, i wanna sleep. 2.15 in the morning. YAY! 7 june, 20 more days to my birthday! :D

byebye.

You mean alot to me.

okay, im seriously have no mood man. what the heck wrong is with me. what is it with the sudden break up thingy ? WTF man. why cant i stop my tears from crying ? what's wrong with EVERYTHING ? 21 more days to my special birthday but, i dont have to mood to celebrate.
if i were to make a wish right now for my birthday, it will be to tear myself apart & wished i'd never exist.

I WISHED I'D NEVER MET HIM, I WISHED IT WAS NOT ME THAT HE LOVED, I WISHED I WAS NOT IN THIS SCHOOL, I WISHED IM OUT FROM THIS WHOLE NIGHTMARE & I WISHED I'LL STOP CRYING.
& also I WISHED PEOPLE WONT ASK ME ABOUT THIS! FOR GOODNESS SAKE PEOPLE, DONT ASK ME THIS FUCKING QNS OVER AND OVER AGAIN. I HAVE ENOUGH OF IT.

He said to me once that he'd love me forever & never want to let go of me. Those promises, they seemed all CRAP to me. But how could you. i guess all i want to do now is just to lock myself up in my room, doing nothing.
& i'll wait for one day, where i can find the right guy for me. i want someone to kidnap or kill me so that i can escape from this situation. but, this is reality. i never felt so much pain before. its like as if a nail was drilled through my heart, & left a hole that can never be cured.
one year & 2 months plus was just thrown in the dustbin. all of it was just a waste.
the gift he gave me on valentines day, i always sleep with it at night to remind myself of him.
but all this while, it was all fake.
ALL FAKE!

I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT IHATE IT IHATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HTE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT IHATE IT IHATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT !!!!!!!!!

*Please dont approach me for a while, i really need to be with myself alone.

You mean alot to me.

YAY! 010607! and another 26 more days to my birthday. but getting bored during the hols. And tmr needa go back to school for another prefect's training. gonna be a long morning again.
& it sucks okay, cus tmr hakim dont have basketball training. wont able to see him again for the next few days.

okay. BIG BIG BIG PROBLEM here. My dad's boss wants to take my dad to another higher ranking in his job. So they said that we will be living in a bungalow in saudi arabia with a free car. and yes, if i decide to go, i will have to stop studying in s'pore and go to saudi arabia to study in an "american school". for me, i wish i could go but, think about my friends here, think about HIM. and what's the best part is that my dad's salary will be US $8000. convert it to spore $ will be $12 000, man! WITH A FREE HOUSE & CAR & SCHOOL EXPENSES FOR ME. but will i want to go & leave my besties alone ? cruel uhs. but my brother cant go as he have to finish his NS. HELLO! saudi arabia is very close to europe! MORE MORE TOPSHOP CLOTHINGS.

but, i've made my decision that i'll stay here in spore to finish my studies. & i also hope that HE does not migrate to aussie.
lots of huge conflict going on.

alright then.
HAPPY HOLS TO EVERYONE :D

You mean alot to me.

heyheyhey! :D

yup, still not sleepy la. now only 1.30 am. Anyways, im gonna buy as MUCH mini skirts from OP, Fox, TOPSHOP, Forever 21 and Ripcurl. && buy lots of tanky tops from Fox, Topshop, Esprit and whatever shops there is. and also buying as many clothes from GAP & flesh imp.

YES! gonna go shopping with daddy again at WISMA ATRIA :D cus his salary increased! wwwwooooohhhhpppeeeeeeee. yup yup, to tell you honestly, to those mini skirts lovers, go to Fox. NICE skirts, man. im still in need of clothings. daddy, more skirts please & tanky tops too.
& SHOES! wow, these are really girl's best friends. and i have to say goodbye to my dear brother as he's going off to NS this coming july. hahs. FINALLY! can go shopping at topshop without him.
he'll only spend my money on his shirts.
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anywayyysss, yesterday(30/5) was damn tiring, okay can say fun also la. We had our prefect's training at the hall. So the fist training was to have a lil bit of bonding with the group members.
played games like whacko & whatever the crap. then made our way down to our station. yup, group one is with group a under one GROUP. get it ? okay, nvm. so group 1 was latecoming so kerina & alyssa define more about the duty. okay im telling ya, it was damn fucking HOTTYY. anyways, after latecoming, we went to the foyer for ERP, not only that we have to wait for the next group to finish explaning about the duty. so we went to have a lil shade in the foyer.

AND YAY! finally it's our turn. aqilah & me went to demonstrate pulling the flags. and yes, it was super accurate, well not really xD then after the whole talking thingy from fazilah, it was the trainee's turn to pull. i escorted murni in the school flag. NOT BAD, actually. she did pull it alright. and STILL BURNING UNDER THE HOT SUN.
spending around 1h under the hot sun & explaining the duty. blahblahsss. but awww, too bad, didn't have enough time to go through about canteen duty. cus' mr harris needs to blab his LONG LONG LONG story & his boring expectations about us. okay la, doont want to be so bad.
he actually okay la. but then horr, if kerina is selected to be one of the exco's then who's be the group leader for group one ?
NO LEADER. so does this mean that anyone of us has to take initiative to lead the whole group ?
well, its sooooooo not gonna be me.

okay, so after mr harris blabs, we were given 10 min to write our reflection on what mr harris has blab. after the reflection thingy, khairul 'e1 was being lame. then we're finally dismissed for the day. HAHA. walking with nabilah at the school gate, then i can almost say that hakim thought that i was not waiting for him xD went to KFC with nabilah, ordered one of the 'WOW' meals. to tell you the truth, i couldn't finish the cheese fries, & i was rushing to go back to school to go back with hakim, so i just left the fries lying on the table, alone.
nabilah accompanied me back. & GOSH! i was on time. by the time i reached the bus stop hakim was already there. we felt a lil shy at first, so we were quite apart from each other. he was standing and i was sitting on the bench. then there's two 99 buses, we took the 2nd one. like OMIGOD, he was sitting quite far from me, its like there's a gap in the center, but i can understand. around 5 to 10 mins he went back to norm. shit luh, he needa go to jurong east for another training. like wtf. its like almost near my house. but luckily it was quite near to PARC OASIS condominium.

& yea yea, took 98 bus to go straight to my house :D and hakim keeps on wearing rockies. he looks like sooooooo "gay-ish" (x

& FINALLY! IT 1ST JUNE. Twenty-six more days to my birthday. and im turning four-teen.
wee~ ain't a lil girl anymore, daddy.
growing to be a young lady. but not growing mature (x lalalala ~

aitiiee, ending here for the day.
gosh! it's 2 am. gonna have a huge EYE BUG if i continue like this. EEEEEEWW.
alright then, peeps. i can say that this has been the most boring post i've ever posted :D

byebyebyebyebye.

You mean alot to me.

Yo, finally here again:}
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