Thursday, July 12, 2007.
Went to school early in the morning. Thought about what Ezan told me last night about HIM wanting to "get back" with another girl. I just burst into tears and couldn't stop from crying. I mean its like very sad to hear about it. Its like i've been wasting my time waiting for something to happen. But i guess its no use hoping for it too. I really dont know why I still freaking love him, man. I just cant forget about him. He said that he wanna break up cus of his studies, end up he wanna get back with his ex-gf. Does he even know how i feel ? I mean, im also a human being which has a mind of its own & i also have feelings. The whole experience with him was super fun but I just couldn't stand the pain right now. On monday, I cried bcus of my friends not bcus of him. He once said to me that my laughter & the way i speak malay is almost like her. So does this mean the girl & i has something in common ? NOOOOO WAYYYYY. I DONT WANNNTTTTT. I know he's a good guy, but he doesn't have to take advantage of his looks and everything right & just ask for girls for break up without a valid reason. I've been crying like hell from 6.50 - 8.00 am. Khairul (e2) was at least kind enough to get me a tissue. My friends were there to support me. Thanks you guys :D
But i have a strong feeling that he was lying to me all along. I gave him my heart & soul to have and to hold but he threw everything away. Its just very heartbreaking to see the person to loved the most walked out from my life. Why cant i be strong as other girls ? Why must i feel hurt ? Why must i be the one in huge pain ?
EVERYTHING ARE ALL BULLSHIT!
I want to forget about him forever. I want him to vanish from my memory. But i just cant. Its toooooooooooooooooooooooo difficult. If i could make this happen ..
Is this too BAD to be true ?
SORRY FOR THIS CRAPPY POST.
You mean alot to me.
